Redirection

"Progress lies not in enhancing what is, but in advancing toward what will be."-Kahlil Gibran

"Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself."-Zen Proverb

I'm going to be honest and "spill the beans," so to speak. Lately, I've been thinking of pressing the pause button on this project. By project, I mean the writing of this blog, which seems to feel more like an obligation lately than a beneficial exercise.

There are a myriad of underlying reasons: my time is becoming more limited as I continue to pursue the idea of becoming a freelance writer and attempting to complete my first novel in some sort of pre-publication form; there are only so many facets of sensitivity that you can comment on and explore before you find yourself shamelessly repeating yourself; I find it a little strange to disclose details about your personal life and thoughts to complete strangers; I don't really have a specifically defined direction or goal for this project, which most people who have a blog do; in roughly a month I will be making a decision about what type of major life change I'm going to embark upon and I don't want to be subject to an audience's judgment (spoken or unspoken) about what path I eventually choose. Nor am I sure that I want to document it publicly.

The bottom line is that I'm not going to shut this project down per se, but that if I'm going to continue posting to it, I'm going to need a little redirection. So, in the meantime I'm going to contemplate. Perhaps it will be in the forefront or perhaps in the background. For today, I've decided to press "pause." Just so I can feel free. Free, at least for a little while. That "little while" may take a few weeks, or a month, or maybe more. The same way a plot unfolds and then ends without intentional deliberation.